I write this post to me as much as I am writing it to you. Because no matter how much I tell myself I understand this, I know it is against my human nature to actually live in it.
You know how you believe things in your head, but for some reason it can’t seem to go down to your heart? This is one of those issues.
I need this post.
Becasue I worry. I worry a lot.
Heck, people just worry a lot.
“Which major do I pick? What will my job be? What am I going to do with my life? How will I leave my mark in this world? How will I live up to what people think of me? Should I be in a sorority? And if so, which one?”
So much of my life is spent on worrying about decisions I have to make. What a waste.
What I worry about the most is relationships.
The dreaded question that haunts and terrorizes every girl:
“Is he the one?”
This is the question that tears me apart. Because I want an immediate answer. If he is not the one, I don’t want to waste my time on him. I don’t want to hurt him. And I don’t want to get so emotionally involved that I become blinded to the fact I may be with someone who isn’t God’s best for me. This questioon has such good intentions, but it infects every relationship with anxiety. At least it has for me. It strips me of my joy. Instead of enjoying my time getting to know someone, I worry about the future.
Page after page in my journal is me begging God to give me immediate answers about what to do with my life.
“God, just show me the way!!!”
WHY do we do that?
I would argue its because we don’t trust that God is going to guide us.
We think that everything is up to us.
We don’t believe we can hear his voice and discern it.
This is an issue that runs deep in every Christian.
Listen to me. This is a heart issue so much bigger than in the realm of relationships. This is an issue that infects your life. It slowly and surely bleeds into every area and before you know it you start becoming anxious about anything and everything. Before you know it, you no longer have peace.
And Digging this up and analyzing it is the most freeing thing you can do.
The hardest thing to accept about God is not that He hates sin. Its not that He is powerful. Its not that He is alive and works miracles today. It is not that there is a hell. It is not that He allows bad things to happen to good people, it is that HIS GRACE COVERS US.
There is nothing you can do where God won’t be constantly covering you with His grace.
He is faithful to do a work in you.
If you went out tonight and did the worst possible thing you could think of and asked for forgiveness tomorrow (truly and sincerely, repenting and turning from sin), God would completely and wholly forgive you and then use it for good in the end. Yours and His.
“For we know in all things, God works for the good of those who love him and have been called according to his purpose. FOR those whom he foreknew, he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.” Romans 8:28-30
Do you hear that? You could rape and murder an entire family, blow up a building and then curse God, and you would be forgiven if you asked for it. If that makes you upset or uncomfortable in the slightest, that’s good. Because that means you see the absurdity of it all.
“The law came in to increase the trespass, but where sin increased, grace abounded all the more, so that, as sin reigned in death, grace also might reign through righteousness leading to eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.”
God’s grace is absurd.
And yet we live in constant fear that these life decisions like relationships and majors and what job we take are going to mess everything up.
Are these important? Absolutely. Will they determine whether God is for you or not? NO.
Whatever you do, wherever you go, God’s grace covers you. He is working for his glory through you. When you choose to follow Jesus with your whole heart, it doesn’t matter what you do, God will work all things for good.
And that is very hard to accept.
But its time that we walk in the freedom that grace offers.
The same grace that gives us eternal life with God is the same grace that we walk in every day. That is extremely powerful.
Will it always be pretty and easy? No.
Will we make mistakes? Absolutely.
Will we have consequences for mistakes? Probably.
But you will be covered.
“But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace toward me was not in vain. On the contrary, I worked harder than any of them though it was not I, but the grace of God that is with me.” 1 Cor. 15:10
That means that no matter what road you choose, which boyfriend or girlfriend you choose, which major you choose, which college you choose, which job you choose, which house you choose, which person you choose to disciple, which church you choose, God will be there to guide you, love you, teach you, and work it beautifully for your good in the end. Whether He leads you to somewhere or something else, or whether that is exactly where you need to be.
Stop thinking that you’re in ultimate control. God gives us the ability to choose what we will, but yet for some strange reason that is beyond our understanding, He is FAITHFUL to use those things for both His and our good. He is soverign.